Setting New Goals

by Elena on October 3, 2011 in Fitness

This weekend I played with my family. I went out to a lovely dinner and even took in a show at the theater. I brainstormed and looked into a future trip to Italy and I did some writing. There was one thing that I did not do that had been on my original to do list. I did NOT run the half marathon that I had been scheduled to run.

And the truth is, although I woke up Sunday thinking that I was missing a perfectly temperate fall day to run 13.1 miles, I did not regret my choice.

I decided not to run because I knew I was not ready. And say as I might that time does not matter, feeling strong does matter. And I would not have finished those miles feeling strong. I would have finished upset with myself, listening to all the inner running demons that occupy space in my head. And so, I stopped. I listened to my body. And I am taking the time I need to set new goals.

My first new goal is to start small. Who cares that I have run two marathons, a half dozen half marathons, and who knows how many ten milers? Who cares that I competed in two triathlons this summer? Those events are part of me, but they are not the me of today.

The me of today needs to regroup. Find the love in running once again. Feel the wind on my face as I ride my bike. Feel the chlorine on my skin as I swim. I need to go back to the basics, and focus. One step after another. One workout after another.

I will not sign up for any BIG distance races until I know that I am on the right path. I will not set myself up for failure and disappointment.

Instead, I will run a 5k that involves chocolate with Jodi and Amy who have recently just entered the world of 5k races. They feel the excitement, the awe, and the strength in a way that I felt a long time ago….something that I think I had forgotten. Something that I need to remember.

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I will sign up for a race that Principessa and I can do together.

I will get outside, on my bike and I will go inside, to the pool.

I will. I will. I will.

And one day, in the not so distant future, I will think BIG again. But for today, I will focus on accepting the fact that I lost my way and will fight my way back, no shortcuts, no side stepping, just hard work.

xo

Elena

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Sweaty October 3, 2011 at 10:57 pm

To be able to move forward, sometimes we need to re-group and re-assess ourselves. Even if it means missing on some of our goals, in the long run, it’s worth it because you can see clearer and have better perspectives.

And that Chocolate marathon… for the first time ever, it made me consider (even if it was only for a fleeting few seconds ;) joining one!

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Kimberly October 3, 2011 at 11:13 pm

Sometimes we need to regroup in order to get where we want to be. There is nothing wrong with that. Follow your heart, you can do this.

But that chocolate race? Sounds delicious! And in DC? That’s not far from me!

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angela October 3, 2011 at 11:18 pm

Um, a chocolate run? That would help anyone’s passion for running, right?

I think you have set a good goal for yourself. Your body has proven what it can do; now it’s time for you to remember what it’s like to enjoy those things instead of pushing it to the point of punishment.

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Amy from Resourceful Mommy October 4, 2011 at 7:38 am

Just four months ago I would not have been able to run to the end of the street without nearly passing out. YOU have been such an inspiration to me, and I cannot wait to run with you this December! Pass the chocolate :)

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jodifur October 4, 2011 at 8:06 am

You are so kind, and I’m excited to run with you. I feel less excitement and awe and more, what the hell am I doing?

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Lo @LoLately October 4, 2011 at 12:59 pm

Good for you to listen to you body, but not giving up. You’re going to come back stronger- physically and mentally. Can’t wait to see the awesome places you’ll go. :)

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Missy @ Wonder, Friend October 4, 2011 at 3:02 pm

This post just resonated with me, and I read it twice. ;-)

Originally, this was to be the year of my half marathon. I’ve done a whole, and a tri, and countless other little races here and there. But I haven’t run seriously in many years. Turns out, my feet had other ideas, and a bad case of plantar faciitis has slowed me down. Way down. So I had to make peace with not doing the half in Febuary. For a while, I was in a bad place about it all, and then about two weeks ago I realized that I was wasting my time. Now it’s one workout at a time, one mini-goal at a time. Lots of stretching, and – finally – lots of peace, knowing that my time will come – eventually!

Sorry to ramble here in your comments!

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Shannon (Aries_Mommy) October 5, 2011 at 8:02 pm

Running for chocolate is something I would do. At the very least, it will give you a reason to smile while you run :) Enjoy the 5k, and the time with friends.

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Amanda - @ihavetohaveyou October 5, 2011 at 10:23 pm

Nobody knows your body and mind like you do – I commend you for bowing out when you felt unready to do it. I hope all that you DO plan on doing goes the way you want it to!
Good luck!

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